Sunday, December 21, 2008
A little drop will do ya.
Bliss in moderation. Can't even call it bliss, but I have learned (kind of) to direct my thoughts without going totally against them. Don't fully fight, but firmly guide. Don't believe I wish to relive this experience.... ever. But you never know. Life has a strange way of working itself out.
Tuesday, December 9, 2008
Right is Hell, Left is Heaven
So I tried again. Felt alright, nothing special so I tried some more. Felt like death. leaned a little to the right. NOOOOOo you are dooming yourself my friend! Leaned to the left. ahhh much better. Why does he look at her like that? I know why, but i still ask. I stare at him and I know what he's thinking as I stare. "Yes I do know" I think as if telepathically answering his question. He wants her. It angers me. How could he want something so forbidden? She seems unhappy, but she is out of options, so she thinks. He is angered by me reading into his thoughts. He tell me to drink some soda, BUT the soda is on the right. In the Doomed zone. FUCK NO I think to myself, but I am so thirsty.....
I see the birthmark or whatever it is. My legs are twitchy. My childhood is tied into my death.... everything connected, intertwined, interwoven. How can I tell them? How can I tell the phone? the phone wants me to talk to it... to inform it of what is going on. Words cannot explain it though. There are none to say that will make the situation clear. I fail in my quest to warn myself.No more, No more. i repeat to myself, but I know the truth. The truth that there is no control.....
Until the next time.
I see the birthmark or whatever it is. My legs are twitchy. My childhood is tied into my death.... everything connected, intertwined, interwoven. How can I tell them? How can I tell the phone? the phone wants me to talk to it... to inform it of what is going on. Words cannot explain it though. There are none to say that will make the situation clear. I fail in my quest to warn myself.No more, No more. i repeat to myself, but I know the truth. The truth that there is no control.....
Until the next time.
Sunday, November 30, 2008
Breaking the Border with Pink and Blue Bears
Traveling to Honderas or Venesuala (sp?) and our plan lands right next to the border. (I'm watching this all from birds eye pov*) People start jumping out of the plan and making a break for it. THe border police start taking them down and are doing a great job of containing them until this guy in a pink bear suit shows up and tackles a group of cops. Then Pink Bears start running from everywhere tackling cops and helping people escape across the border. Then Blue bears join in. Once the bears have secured the border a Parade starts rolling through.
*pov=Point of View
(Different Part) I'm already in the foreign country with my running coach from high school and some other kid. He is showing me around the city and focuses on a park he calls Shetner Park or something like that. It has this circle of cement in the middle that is radiating with power.
(Back to the parade) The Main thing I remember about the parade was I was sitting off so the side on a carpet that was moving with the parade, but slightly slower so they would still pass me. All the people on the floats where women, starting with these elaborately dressed Indian* wome. As the floats progressed past me though the women started having less and less clothing, until they had none at all. they even started displaying elicit behaviorat which I was embarassed to watch, thinking that it wasn't a dream and people would judge me on my behavior.Eventually I broke off from the parade, only to realize that I had no idea where I was and started to retrace my steps. I made it all the way back to Shetner Park, but that wasn't where I was to meet my coach. I had to make it back to the beginning of the Parade. I ran into a boy who told me he knew Coach Holben and that he would let him know to meet me at Shetner Park if I had not arrived by Nightfall. He asked if I had a bird lisence which would allow him any gun in this country. I told him I did not and continued on my way. As I walked down a familiar pathway I looked up at the trees that surrounded me and saw the most amazing Cardinals. They were Probably two feet in Height and looked as though they weighed about 40 lbs. These gargantuan birds swooped down next to me fearlessly.
I continued walking until I ran into another park. This park had a much more friendly feel to it and I knew I was almost back to the start of the parade. There were dogs playing all around and a rock statue. One dog Started deficating right in front of me, but looked at me turned around and proceeded. I walked around a corner and immediately upon turning the corner I felt a great force pull me backwards. I saw another runner from another school ahead. The force increased with every step I took. I should've run more before this race. It continued to increase until I was leaning forward just to make progress. I Inched my way forward until I could go no further. I sat to rest.
*Indian = women from India, not Native American.
(Earlier part of a different dream) I'm on a computer at the top of the stairs at my parents house. The thing is plagued with pop-ups and advertisments. I know they are going to blame me for this. That was the only thought going through my head. Ctrl+Alt+Del wasn't working. I couldn't click the X at the top right of the ads. I right clicked them on the toolbar to close and quickly clicked the start menu to restart the computer. It worked and I was relieved because I knew it was fixed. I went downstairs and started fidgeting with a computer on the refrigerator.
damn pop-ups.
mood - Refreshed
*pov=Point of View
(Different Part) I'm already in the foreign country with my running coach from high school and some other kid. He is showing me around the city and focuses on a park he calls Shetner Park or something like that. It has this circle of cement in the middle that is radiating with power.
(Back to the parade) The Main thing I remember about the parade was I was sitting off so the side on a carpet that was moving with the parade, but slightly slower so they would still pass me. All the people on the floats where women, starting with these elaborately dressed Indian* wome. As the floats progressed past me though the women started having less and less clothing, until they had none at all. they even started displaying elicit behaviorat which I was embarassed to watch, thinking that it wasn't a dream and people would judge me on my behavior.Eventually I broke off from the parade, only to realize that I had no idea where I was and started to retrace my steps. I made it all the way back to Shetner Park, but that wasn't where I was to meet my coach. I had to make it back to the beginning of the Parade. I ran into a boy who told me he knew Coach Holben and that he would let him know to meet me at Shetner Park if I had not arrived by Nightfall. He asked if I had a bird lisence which would allow him any gun in this country. I told him I did not and continued on my way. As I walked down a familiar pathway I looked up at the trees that surrounded me and saw the most amazing Cardinals. They were Probably two feet in Height and looked as though they weighed about 40 lbs. These gargantuan birds swooped down next to me fearlessly.
I continued walking until I ran into another park. This park had a much more friendly feel to it and I knew I was almost back to the start of the parade. There were dogs playing all around and a rock statue. One dog Started deficating right in front of me, but looked at me turned around and proceeded. I walked around a corner and immediately upon turning the corner I felt a great force pull me backwards. I saw another runner from another school ahead. The force increased with every step I took. I should've run more before this race. It continued to increase until I was leaning forward just to make progress. I Inched my way forward until I could go no further. I sat to rest.
*Indian = women from India, not Native American.
(Earlier part of a different dream) I'm on a computer at the top of the stairs at my parents house. The thing is plagued with pop-ups and advertisments. I know they are going to blame me for this. That was the only thought going through my head. Ctrl+Alt+Del wasn't working. I couldn't click the X at the top right of the ads. I right clicked them on the toolbar to close and quickly clicked the start menu to restart the computer. It worked and I was relieved because I knew it was fixed. I went downstairs and started fidgeting with a computer on the refrigerator.
damn pop-ups.
mood - Refreshed
Tuesday, October 28, 2008
The Long Run Home
So this was a strange experience.....
Keep in mind this all actually happened.
I am running down the street, enjoying my I-Pod, listening to some Muse or Evanescence or Royksopp or something along those lines. I pass my friends house and think to myself, I should text her and tell her I ran past her house and house it reminded me of that one time we had to chase that one drunk girl down and take her home. Suddenly a shiver of fear runs down my spine. The trees around me close in. I'm in a forest.
The fear ascends into terror. I am in a past life. I am running from something. The forest looms around me. I snap out of the flashback only for an instant and then I'm back in. The thing is getting closer. I speed up, trying to lose my pursuer. I make it to a checkpoint. I cannot tell if the shivers I am experiencing are because of the cold or out of fear. The creature bears down on me.
I hit the light. It engulfs me in its warmth and safety. I know I cannot stay for long. I set off again, still feeling the beast's presence. however this time it is not as pressing. I make it home without a hitch.
Keep in mind this all actually happened.
I am running down the street, enjoying my I-Pod, listening to some Muse or Evanescence or Royksopp or something along those lines. I pass my friends house and think to myself, I should text her and tell her I ran past her house and house it reminded me of that one time we had to chase that one drunk girl down and take her home. Suddenly a shiver of fear runs down my spine. The trees around me close in. I'm in a forest.
The fear ascends into terror. I am in a past life. I am running from something. The forest looms around me. I snap out of the flashback only for an instant and then I'm back in. The thing is getting closer. I speed up, trying to lose my pursuer. I make it to a checkpoint. I cannot tell if the shivers I am experiencing are because of the cold or out of fear. The creature bears down on me.
I hit the light. It engulfs me in its warmth and safety. I know I cannot stay for long. I set off again, still feeling the beast's presence. however this time it is not as pressing. I make it home without a hitch.
Wednesday, October 8, 2008
A Lighter Touch
Part 1: A gentle sensation swept over me, much like being on a boat. A slight rocking that would almost put me to sleep. Then much like I was swimming, not like a drunk out of the mind swimmy feeling, but one of actually swimming. Then a ferris wheel motion. The feeling that gravity shifted to one side.
The space ship was ready for launch. The Bubble cockpit enclosed me. but the bubble failed and turned into a net which dragged me down. A blue net pulled me into another room. A man reach out for me, but I knew not to take his hand, well more out of non interaction I didn't take his hand.
Part 2: It no longer scared me. It no longer swept over me like death. I had learned how to manage it. The same reoccurance. What did it mean? It explained several things, none of which made sense. I struggled to understand. It showed me the future, the past, different versions of the present. What did it all mean?
Sunday, September 14, 2008
Dream TIME!!!
I'm been in a semi dreamy mood all day today..... i don't get it, but everything I think about is like magnified x10. I can picture things so perfectly.
My dream last night included several elements that I must remind myself to look up later.
Ok I had the same four story house in my dream with all the stairs and when I get to the top story, a monster starts chasing me..... and I can just jump down the different floors to get away. But this one wasn't as scary as it normally is.
Second part - I was by a castle like hella high in the sky, I'm just going to say 4,000 ft. even though I have no flipping idea. I started to transform so I climbed to the outside of the castle so nobody would see me. I turned into this like dragon Kite creature and then split into two and saw mysself. I kept looking at my hand transform into a claw. but when my other self transformed I saw what I looked like. and my other self jumped from the castle and started flying. I knew it was a bad idea, but i jumped anyways and started flying. Then I was flying around trying to hit targets and then I punched a rock into a house.
Part three - I was in the house that I punched the rock into. We were planning something of great importance, but I don't know what.
Part 4 - I was in my bedroom with my mom and dad. Someone was talking to my dad over a walkie talkie. He was being really rude to my dad, but my dad was staying calm. He asked where my dad was and my dad responded by saying, "I'm out by the street, looking for the car." The guy said something else snide, but then added j/p big dog.
Don't remember the other parts :/
My dream last night included several elements that I must remind myself to look up later.
Ok I had the same four story house in my dream with all the stairs and when I get to the top story, a monster starts chasing me..... and I can just jump down the different floors to get away. But this one wasn't as scary as it normally is.
Second part - I was by a castle like hella high in the sky, I'm just going to say 4,000 ft. even though I have no flipping idea. I started to transform so I climbed to the outside of the castle so nobody would see me. I turned into this like dragon Kite creature and then split into two and saw mysself. I kept looking at my hand transform into a claw. but when my other self transformed I saw what I looked like. and my other self jumped from the castle and started flying. I knew it was a bad idea, but i jumped anyways and started flying. Then I was flying around trying to hit targets and then I punched a rock into a house.
Part three - I was in the house that I punched the rock into. We were planning something of great importance, but I don't know what.
Part 4 - I was in my bedroom with my mom and dad. Someone was talking to my dad over a walkie talkie. He was being really rude to my dad, but my dad was staying calm. He asked where my dad was and my dad responded by saying, "I'm out by the street, looking for the car." The guy said something else snide, but then added j/p big dog.
Don't remember the other parts :/
Hippos, Serpants, and Demons
So I totally just had a flashback on three dreams that I wanted to write down but never did. So here goes before I forget them again. (In order from when I had them)
Dream #1: The dream I remember the least of. Probably because i had it like 2 months ago, but anyways.... I was in like Disneyworld and I kept trying to sneak a crapload of guns in, but for some reason they had a metal detector. Well somehow I got the guns in and my cousin was in there and he showed me this shortcut that took us through this laser tag looking place. annnnnddd that's it.
Dream #2: The dream I remember the most of. I was hiking with some friends through an extremely shallow river when we found a little raft boat. We took it and started floating down the river when we hit a waterfall and it dumped us all. My friends were able to make it to shore, but when I tried the shore became an extremely high cliff. To make matters worth a Rabid hippo started chasing me. I remember thinking, "Out of all the animals, why'd it have to be a hippo?" Well this hippo was mean! Luckily I was in a full scuba suit with a little engine propellor thingy and I kept jumping out of the water whenever the hippo would try to bite me. Soon however the engine of my propellor started to die and the hippo caught up. I wrestled with it for a second and seemed to be gaining the upper hand when a huge Serpant popped out of the water besides us. Momentarily distracted by the serpant, I was bitten on the hand by the hippo. The hippo seemed to be holding me for the serpant. When the serpant lunged at me I dove behind the hippo and it bit the hippo instead. The hippo dies and I started chucking spears at the serpants eye. Yes it only had ONE eye. As soon as I wrestled my hand away from the hippos mouth however I worked out a truce with the serpant and it left. Shortly after it left I remember thinking, "dang I should've killed it too so I could've bragged about killing a hippo AND a serpant." And that's it.
Dream #3: The scariest dream. I don't remember much of this bad boy because I wanted to forget, but couldn't forget the key part. I was somehow possessed in the dream and everytime someone would say the word "seriously" in any context, I would start to freak out and turn more and more into a demon. I even killed someone I cared about because I momentarily lost control to the demon within me. And that's all. The demon kinda looked like this.
mood - thoughtful
Attitude - Alien Ant Farm
Dream #1: The dream I remember the least of. Probably because i had it like 2 months ago, but anyways.... I was in like Disneyworld and I kept trying to sneak a crapload of guns in, but for some reason they had a metal detector. Well somehow I got the guns in and my cousin was in there and he showed me this shortcut that took us through this laser tag looking place. annnnnddd that's it.
Dream #2: The dream I remember the most of. I was hiking with some friends through an extremely shallow river when we found a little raft boat. We took it and started floating down the river when we hit a waterfall and it dumped us all. My friends were able to make it to shore, but when I tried the shore became an extremely high cliff. To make matters worth a Rabid hippo started chasing me. I remember thinking, "Out of all the animals, why'd it have to be a hippo?" Well this hippo was mean! Luckily I was in a full scuba suit with a little engine propellor thingy and I kept jumping out of the water whenever the hippo would try to bite me. Soon however the engine of my propellor started to die and the hippo caught up. I wrestled with it for a second and seemed to be gaining the upper hand when a huge Serpant popped out of the water besides us. Momentarily distracted by the serpant, I was bitten on the hand by the hippo. The hippo seemed to be holding me for the serpant. When the serpant lunged at me I dove behind the hippo and it bit the hippo instead. The hippo dies and I started chucking spears at the serpants eye. Yes it only had ONE eye. As soon as I wrestled my hand away from the hippos mouth however I worked out a truce with the serpant and it left. Shortly after it left I remember thinking, "dang I should've killed it too so I could've bragged about killing a hippo AND a serpant." And that's it.
Dream #3: The scariest dream. I don't remember much of this bad boy because I wanted to forget, but couldn't forget the key part. I was somehow possessed in the dream and everytime someone would say the word "seriously" in any context, I would start to freak out and turn more and more into a demon. I even killed someone I cared about because I momentarily lost control to the demon within me. And that's all. The demon kinda looked like this.
mood - thoughtful
Attitude - Alien Ant Farm
The House and The Cliff
Sorry i typed this on aim and I really didn't feel like retyping it so I just copy pasted it.... so there isn't really any punctuation or anything.
i've had this dream before there are like ten of us all my friends and like we are running from something in like backwood country and we get captured by these people and dragged tohe suburbs and thrown in this backyard to the right of the house is a warehouse, guarded by dogs to the left is a house that i always go through and break stuff and then get shot by the owner and behing the wall is this street that goes on forever, and you can never get back over the wall cuz it is like 20 feet high so i decided to sneak over the wall to the left BUT not go over it completely just walk on the wall so i can reach the front of the house where i've never been before when i made it i ran so fast that we all got seperated i ended up on this mountain with like 2 of my other friends i'm not sure what happened to everyone else on the mountain was a hotspring in this glass building i worked there for a while and then this one day this guy comes and askes to see our cliff springs (its like hot springs that look over a cliff) over the cliff is like a ten foot drop onto like a 3 foot little ledge and then over the ledge it drops like 800 feet the guy walks to the edge and falls onto the ledge and i go after him and then he just walks off the ledge and I try to grab him but i almost fall i save myself last minute but i'm stuck on this ledge with no one around to help me i keep trying to make it up the cliff, but everytime i try to make upward motion i slid downwards and almost over the edge finally i just muster all my courage and jump as high as i can and i make it too the top and pull myself over and run back into the building and tell everyone what happened o and we wrote a list of how many people have fallen over the edge
mood - Drained
i've had this dream before there are like ten of us all my friends and like we are running from something in like backwood country and we get captured by these people and dragged tohe suburbs and thrown in this backyard to the right of the house is a warehouse, guarded by dogs to the left is a house that i always go through and break stuff and then get shot by the owner and behing the wall is this street that goes on forever, and you can never get back over the wall cuz it is like 20 feet high so i decided to sneak over the wall to the left BUT not go over it completely just walk on the wall so i can reach the front of the house where i've never been before when i made it i ran so fast that we all got seperated i ended up on this mountain with like 2 of my other friends i'm not sure what happened to everyone else on the mountain was a hotspring in this glass building i worked there for a while and then this one day this guy comes and askes to see our cliff springs (its like hot springs that look over a cliff) over the cliff is like a ten foot drop onto like a 3 foot little ledge and then over the ledge it drops like 800 feet the guy walks to the edge and falls onto the ledge and i go after him and then he just walks off the ledge and I try to grab him but i almost fall i save myself last minute but i'm stuck on this ledge with no one around to help me i keep trying to make it up the cliff, but everytime i try to make upward motion i slid downwards and almost over the edge finally i just muster all my courage and jump as high as i can and i make it too the top and pull myself over and run back into the building and tell everyone what happened o and we wrote a list of how many people have fallen over the edge
mood - Drained
Sword Fights and Decapitations
Guess what? More dreams woooooooooo
ok this dream i was running through this building, (i forgot a HUGE portion) But anyways I get out of the building and there are people EVERYWHERE!!!
I fight my way through the crowd and I find these knights all over the place. I begin fighting them and am doing fairly well against them when this big guy shows up. (Keep in mind I'm still fighting the little guys) He is brandishing a huge sword and begins to fight me. I start laying into him with a series of blows and a health bar appears for him. It is decreasing rapidly when he starts shooting these little energy balls at me. They hurt extremely bad so I start running. Before I can get far he shoots purple energy all around him and kills me. I reappear in the building and repeat the process. On the third time of dying I decided enough is enough and start killing everyone. (Not the knights, but everyone before I get to the knights. I start but chopping people in the head with my sword then I move to impaling them through the body and lastly I start decapitating people. I don't know what motivated me to this extreme violence, but once it escalated it stayed at an intense level. and thats that.
mood - Powerful
ok this dream i was running through this building, (i forgot a HUGE portion) But anyways I get out of the building and there are people EVERYWHERE!!!
I fight my way through the crowd and I find these knights all over the place. I begin fighting them and am doing fairly well against them when this big guy shows up. (Keep in mind I'm still fighting the little guys) He is brandishing a huge sword and begins to fight me. I start laying into him with a series of blows and a health bar appears for him. It is decreasing rapidly when he starts shooting these little energy balls at me. They hurt extremely bad so I start running. Before I can get far he shoots purple energy all around him and kills me. I reappear in the building and repeat the process. On the third time of dying I decided enough is enough and start killing everyone. (Not the knights, but everyone before I get to the knights. I start but chopping people in the head with my sword then I move to impaling them through the body and lastly I start decapitating people. I don't know what motivated me to this extreme violence, but once it escalated it stayed at an intense level. and thats that.
mood - Powerful
Trapped
ok so I had this really long and crazy dream last night.
PART 1 Started with a birds eye view of this truck, like I was watching a TV show and there was a narrators voice telling me everything that w3as happening. The truck was stuck at this traffic jam, and couldn't get to this lakeside dock like it needed too.
Part 2 I was riding in this giant robot and it was a third person view from outside the robot. I was going to some Greek city. I was about to confront the ruler and I had a robot army with me. I entered the citadel where everyone was gathered and the ruler was giving a speech about how HE recovered this prisoner, when it actually was me, and how HE should be reinstated as emporer. I yelled NAY! and everyone gasped and looked back at me. I explained how I had recovered the prisoner and not him, and that if he didn't step down I would use my robot army to attck him. Guards started closing in on me and I yelled, "ATTACK!!" Nothing happened. A terrible feeling rose in my stomache. Then all the windows on the roof of the citadel exploded and robot birds flew in. And then they left... everyone gave a sigh of relief and the guards continued to close in. Then a bomb went off in the crowd and everyone scattered and started screaming. I made a break for some stairs. upon reaching the top a female assasin in red garbs pulled out two swords on me. I pulled out two guns and shot her multiple times. She shrugged the bullets off. I was like, "WHAT THE HELL I SHOT YOU!?!" Then she stabbed me in the shoulder. The pain was intense. I grabbed her and threw her over a stair railing.
Part 3 I was at a house. INside a house. with a girl. SUddenly I realized I was dreaming. I woke in a bathroom, but I wasn't really awake. I still knew I was in the dream. I paniced. I looked in a mirror and expected something to pop out at me. It did. The feeling of terror surged through my body. I grabbed the porcelin toilet cover and tried smashing the mirrors, (there were two) but the cover just bounced off. Then it shattered in my hands. In shock, I ran from the bathroom into my parents bedroom. I yelled, begged, pleaded for help. My dad just laughed. I began fighting him, hailing him with brutal attcks. He told me it would do me no good so I stopped. He laid down on his bed and started watching tv. Something about a dolphin at first. I asked him how to get out, how to escape. He told me the easiest way is to call 911 and ask them to help you with changing a tire. I saw a man trying the same thing, but for some reason he jumped out of an airplane with a parachute on while doing it. He froze in the air, and then was gone. He had done it, so could I. I grabbed a phone, but my attantion was diverted by the television once again. I saw the first part of my dream, with the truck being stuck in traffic and trying to get to the dock. I decided enough was enough and somehow forced myself awake. I woke up, this time for real, in a sweat and tangled in my bed sheets, with one weird marking on my chest. It was probably from sleeping on my hand, which was numb. It kinda looked like four knuckles. scary dreams are the worst.
PART 1 Started with a birds eye view of this truck, like I was watching a TV show and there was a narrators voice telling me everything that w3as happening. The truck was stuck at this traffic jam, and couldn't get to this lakeside dock like it needed too.
Part 2 I was riding in this giant robot and it was a third person view from outside the robot. I was going to some Greek city. I was about to confront the ruler and I had a robot army with me. I entered the citadel where everyone was gathered and the ruler was giving a speech about how HE recovered this prisoner, when it actually was me, and how HE should be reinstated as emporer. I yelled NAY! and everyone gasped and looked back at me. I explained how I had recovered the prisoner and not him, and that if he didn't step down I would use my robot army to attck him. Guards started closing in on me and I yelled, "ATTACK!!" Nothing happened. A terrible feeling rose in my stomache. Then all the windows on the roof of the citadel exploded and robot birds flew in. And then they left... everyone gave a sigh of relief and the guards continued to close in. Then a bomb went off in the crowd and everyone scattered and started screaming. I made a break for some stairs. upon reaching the top a female assasin in red garbs pulled out two swords on me. I pulled out two guns and shot her multiple times. She shrugged the bullets off. I was like, "WHAT THE HELL I SHOT YOU!?!" Then she stabbed me in the shoulder. The pain was intense. I grabbed her and threw her over a stair railing.
Part 3 I was at a house. INside a house. with a girl. SUddenly I realized I was dreaming. I woke in a bathroom, but I wasn't really awake. I still knew I was in the dream. I paniced. I looked in a mirror and expected something to pop out at me. It did. The feeling of terror surged through my body. I grabbed the porcelin toilet cover and tried smashing the mirrors, (there were two) but the cover just bounced off. Then it shattered in my hands. In shock, I ran from the bathroom into my parents bedroom. I yelled, begged, pleaded for help. My dad just laughed. I began fighting him, hailing him with brutal attcks. He told me it would do me no good so I stopped. He laid down on his bed and started watching tv. Something about a dolphin at first. I asked him how to get out, how to escape. He told me the easiest way is to call 911 and ask them to help you with changing a tire. I saw a man trying the same thing, but for some reason he jumped out of an airplane with a parachute on while doing it. He froze in the air, and then was gone. He had done it, so could I. I grabbed a phone, but my attantion was diverted by the television once again. I saw the first part of my dream, with the truck being stuck in traffic and trying to get to the dock. I decided enough was enough and somehow forced myself awake. I woke up, this time for real, in a sweat and tangled in my bed sheets, with one weird marking on my chest. It was probably from sleeping on my hand, which was numb. It kinda looked like four knuckles. scary dreams are the worst.
Attack of the Dummies vs. War of The Worlds
OK a couple of dreams last night.
Started with me being in a HUMUNGOUS Sam's Club-like store. There were groceries everywhere. and we were stocking up because we were going somewhere. There were like 4 of us. Two guys and two girls. All of a sudden as we are about to buy all of our stuff the store shuts down. I start yelling at the cashier because she refuses to ring up our items and tells us to get the hell out. Then these giant mascot looking people bust through the walls and start attacking us. I soon realize I'm not storng enough to take them all so we all start running. I climb to the top of all the groceries, which happens to be like 20 feet up, and the evil mascot people start chucking bags of potatoes, cans, and other heavy items at me. Most of the items hit me but I just shrug them off and keep going, I realize that the items should be hurting me more, but I'm like whatever. the end.
Then War of the world comes along. I walk into my garage and this HUGE battle is goin on between these alien spider looking robot with long necks and one eye and all these people. The main spider sticks its head in my garage and looks directly at me. I start punching its eye and its eye shatters like glass. I continue to punch it and its whole camera-like head explodes. Before it explodes though it shows the face of some guy on a screen. Immediately after it explodes the garage door shuts and the battle is over, the aliens retreated and the humans disappear. The guy whose face it showed on the screen walks in my garage side door and throws me a coffee and some other drink. I catch them and he says, "nice catch sport." I look out the garage side door and realize that this guy is my neighbors boyfriend. I immediately hate him. He starts criticizing everything and everyone, but laughs it off and makes a joke out of it. I start to follow him around and he gets angry with me. We start to argue and I make a fool of him in front of everyone. My mom yells at me to be polite. He looks like he's going to kill me, but then smiles an awkward smile and walks inside my house. I follow him into my garage. He turns to me with an evil look upon him face and starts to laugh. He mocks me and says, "You fool, you have no idea what you are into." and his body starts to rip open and he turns into a mini version of the spiders. He tries to stab me with one of his legs, but I grab this metal bar and hit his leg away and somehow he dies. Then the whole thing starts over. Battle happens, guy comes in, but this time I am talking to my brother and I say, I know who that sonavabitch is. My brother says, "yea, but the family decided that out of all the stories, they like this boyfriend girlfriend relationship best." I look at him like wtf you talking about man? and then the evil guy turns into a hologram and I realize it was just a movie that I could affect. Every action made for a different ending to the movie.
Started with me being in a HUMUNGOUS Sam's Club-like store. There were groceries everywhere. and we were stocking up because we were going somewhere. There were like 4 of us. Two guys and two girls. All of a sudden as we are about to buy all of our stuff the store shuts down. I start yelling at the cashier because she refuses to ring up our items and tells us to get the hell out. Then these giant mascot looking people bust through the walls and start attacking us. I soon realize I'm not storng enough to take them all so we all start running. I climb to the top of all the groceries, which happens to be like 20 feet up, and the evil mascot people start chucking bags of potatoes, cans, and other heavy items at me. Most of the items hit me but I just shrug them off and keep going, I realize that the items should be hurting me more, but I'm like whatever. the end.
Then War of the world comes along. I walk into my garage and this HUGE battle is goin on between these alien spider looking robot with long necks and one eye and all these people. The main spider sticks its head in my garage and looks directly at me. I start punching its eye and its eye shatters like glass. I continue to punch it and its whole camera-like head explodes. Before it explodes though it shows the face of some guy on a screen. Immediately after it explodes the garage door shuts and the battle is over, the aliens retreated and the humans disappear. The guy whose face it showed on the screen walks in my garage side door and throws me a coffee and some other drink. I catch them and he says, "nice catch sport." I look out the garage side door and realize that this guy is my neighbors boyfriend. I immediately hate him. He starts criticizing everything and everyone, but laughs it off and makes a joke out of it. I start to follow him around and he gets angry with me. We start to argue and I make a fool of him in front of everyone. My mom yells at me to be polite. He looks like he's going to kill me, but then smiles an awkward smile and walks inside my house. I follow him into my garage. He turns to me with an evil look upon him face and starts to laugh. He mocks me and says, "You fool, you have no idea what you are into." and his body starts to rip open and he turns into a mini version of the spiders. He tries to stab me with one of his legs, but I grab this metal bar and hit his leg away and somehow he dies. Then the whole thing starts over. Battle happens, guy comes in, but this time I am talking to my brother and I say, I know who that sonavabitch is. My brother says, "yea, but the family decided that out of all the stories, they like this boyfriend girlfriend relationship best." I look at him like wtf you talking about man? and then the evil guy turns into a hologram and I realize it was just a movie that I could affect. Every action made for a different ending to the movie.
The Explosion and the The Hoodwink
Another three part dream. Can't remember the third part so I'll just write one and two for you.
Part 1: I was walking down the street with my friend Matt when we came upon an Albertsons. There were cop cars and ambulances and firetrucks everywhere in the parking lot so, naturally, we got curious. All of a sudden Matt says, "I got a bad feeling about this. You wanna walk down into the park?" I agreed so we climbed down this little stone wall about 4 or 5 feet and watched the Albertsons from behind that. All of a sudden the whole place explodes. We duck behind the wall as shrapnel and debris flies above us. A huge cloud of black smoke engulfs us and I cover my eyes so they don't get irratated. The smoke clears and the debris settles. We poke our head above the wall again and the Albertsons is completely decimated. It explodes again with more intensity than the first time. We wait out the cloud of smoke again and then make a break down the street towards my house to warn my parents and make sure everything is alright.
Somewhere between part 1 and 2 I am in a car doing homework for a class when I realize I didn't tell my parents about the explosion. I freak out and throw my books to the side and drive off.
Part 2: I'm in some house that isn't familiar to me and I'm with my brother and Kyle. There is like a small kickback going on and a girl I don't know pulls me into another room. She asks me if I have a cndom so I go running out of the room to go look for one. On the way to "my" room I see kyle and he's trying to hide a boner from me. I find it hilarious and can't stop laughing for a good period of time. Then I remember I have to find a condom so I go running into my room. I search through the piles of clothing and find a treasure chest. I feel a rush of relief because this is where I used to keep all of my condoms in my old house. I open it though and am disappointed to see none in there. I continue searching frantically and find my brother's wallet in my room. I find one in his wallet and snatch it away, but shortly after find a cache of my own and exchange it for one of mine. I run back into the room where the girl was and she tells me to lay on the bed next to her little sister, who is probably a year or two younger than myself. I lie next to her naked younger sister and she calls for someone. Her brother walks in and starts argueing with his sister. While this is going on her younger sister asks me, "Would you be willing to do it with me here?" I nod yes and then refocus on the conversation between the brother and the sister. I hear him say, "But I don't even know if he has a boyfriend." I immediately realize what this means. He is gay and his sister is trying to get me to sleep with him. I want to sleep with the younger sister, but the situation is too awkward and I definitely don't want to be forced to sleep with him. I leave and don't remember what happens in part three.
Part 1: I was walking down the street with my friend Matt when we came upon an Albertsons. There were cop cars and ambulances and firetrucks everywhere in the parking lot so, naturally, we got curious. All of a sudden Matt says, "I got a bad feeling about this. You wanna walk down into the park?" I agreed so we climbed down this little stone wall about 4 or 5 feet and watched the Albertsons from behind that. All of a sudden the whole place explodes. We duck behind the wall as shrapnel and debris flies above us. A huge cloud of black smoke engulfs us and I cover my eyes so they don't get irratated. The smoke clears and the debris settles. We poke our head above the wall again and the Albertsons is completely decimated. It explodes again with more intensity than the first time. We wait out the cloud of smoke again and then make a break down the street towards my house to warn my parents and make sure everything is alright.
Somewhere between part 1 and 2 I am in a car doing homework for a class when I realize I didn't tell my parents about the explosion. I freak out and throw my books to the side and drive off.
Part 2: I'm in some house that isn't familiar to me and I'm with my brother and Kyle. There is like a small kickback going on and a girl I don't know pulls me into another room. She asks me if I have a cndom so I go running out of the room to go look for one. On the way to "my" room I see kyle and he's trying to hide a boner from me. I find it hilarious and can't stop laughing for a good period of time. Then I remember I have to find a condom so I go running into my room. I search through the piles of clothing and find a treasure chest. I feel a rush of relief because this is where I used to keep all of my condoms in my old house. I open it though and am disappointed to see none in there. I continue searching frantically and find my brother's wallet in my room. I find one in his wallet and snatch it away, but shortly after find a cache of my own and exchange it for one of mine. I run back into the room where the girl was and she tells me to lay on the bed next to her little sister, who is probably a year or two younger than myself. I lie next to her naked younger sister and she calls for someone. Her brother walks in and starts argueing with his sister. While this is going on her younger sister asks me, "Would you be willing to do it with me here?" I nod yes and then refocus on the conversation between the brother and the sister. I hear him say, "But I don't even know if he has a boyfriend." I immediately realize what this means. He is gay and his sister is trying to get me to sleep with him. I want to sleep with the younger sister, but the situation is too awkward and I definitely don't want to be forced to sleep with him. I leave and don't remember what happens in part three.
The Great Escape
Crazy dream last night. Kinda late writing about it so I won't remember it perfectly, but I'll get the main parts.
Some computer was taking over the world and me and a friend were running from it. It took the shape of a helicopter and was searching for us with a search light, luckily we were in a forgiving environment with plenty of cover.
We had shot a mortar at it a day earlier and had to split up to escape. I had a flashback of the event. Then we decided to try again. We were in high grass and my friend set up the mortar. He gave me a running head start and then fired it off. I ran towards a lone building and he took off towards these hills. The Helicopter chased him. I entered the building and immediately started climbing the stairs. I knew the only way out safely was off the top florr over a bridge. I ran into two of my friends (Kyle C and Paige) from work and they told me they found an easier way, but I knew it wouldn't work. I tried to help them, but they ran outside and where captured by enemy human forces. I ran higher and higher up the stairs until I saw the door I needed to get through. Suddenly I was cut off by my roommate (Darnell) and a friend from work (Joelle). They started telling me secrets about themselves to show that they were actually them and not the computer. I still didn't believe them so I took my Joelle hostage and stole the keys to the door from her. I unlocked the door and threw her at Darnell. Suddenly a Mexican guy ran up the stairs and charged me with a knife. I dove for an open air vent and started crawling through. Before I could make it he slashed my stomache, but I heard Darnell start to scuffle with him. I crawled through the vent and was outside, hella high up. I made a break across the bridge towards another building across a huge wall. The bridge didn't go all the way across though. I heard the computer helicopter coming and I jumped for the other building. I fell so far..... and made it to the other side. I was safe.
2 weeks later (in the dream)
I am walking through a mall/marketplace. I run into Darnell. I ask him if his name is even really Darnell. He says, "I am known as the Fox. You are in grave danger, you must come with me." All of a sudden a couple of guys surround me and start escorting me through the market. They lead me away from some geeky looking guys and inform me that they are working with the computer. I ask them where they are taking me. They respond, "To a secure location, we need you in one piece. You could be the Earth's last hope for stopping this machine."
*awaken*
Not tired at all when I awoke. Looked at the clock and I was up an hour early so I fell back asleep and was still refreshed when I woke again.
Mood - tired
listening to: Nothing to Lose - Billy Talent
Some computer was taking over the world and me and a friend were running from it. It took the shape of a helicopter and was searching for us with a search light, luckily we were in a forgiving environment with plenty of cover.
We had shot a mortar at it a day earlier and had to split up to escape. I had a flashback of the event. Then we decided to try again. We were in high grass and my friend set up the mortar. He gave me a running head start and then fired it off. I ran towards a lone building and he took off towards these hills. The Helicopter chased him. I entered the building and immediately started climbing the stairs. I knew the only way out safely was off the top florr over a bridge. I ran into two of my friends (Kyle C and Paige) from work and they told me they found an easier way, but I knew it wouldn't work. I tried to help them, but they ran outside and where captured by enemy human forces. I ran higher and higher up the stairs until I saw the door I needed to get through. Suddenly I was cut off by my roommate (Darnell) and a friend from work (Joelle). They started telling me secrets about themselves to show that they were actually them and not the computer. I still didn't believe them so I took my Joelle hostage and stole the keys to the door from her. I unlocked the door and threw her at Darnell. Suddenly a Mexican guy ran up the stairs and charged me with a knife. I dove for an open air vent and started crawling through. Before I could make it he slashed my stomache, but I heard Darnell start to scuffle with him. I crawled through the vent and was outside, hella high up. I made a break across the bridge towards another building across a huge wall. The bridge didn't go all the way across though. I heard the computer helicopter coming and I jumped for the other building. I fell so far..... and made it to the other side. I was safe.
2 weeks later (in the dream)
I am walking through a mall/marketplace. I run into Darnell. I ask him if his name is even really Darnell. He says, "I am known as the Fox. You are in grave danger, you must come with me." All of a sudden a couple of guys surround me and start escorting me through the market. They lead me away from some geeky looking guys and inform me that they are working with the computer. I ask them where they are taking me. They respond, "To a secure location, we need you in one piece. You could be the Earth's last hope for stopping this machine."
*awaken*
Not tired at all when I awoke. Looked at the clock and I was up an hour early so I fell back asleep and was still refreshed when I woke again.
Mood - tired
listening to: Nothing to Lose - Billy Talent
Tuesday, September 2, 2008
The Worst Day of The Rest of My Life
Delusional.
That is the the best word that would explain last night.
My world was destroyed.
I was stuck in a cycle, of infinity that i could never break. I had tried so many times that it knew my every move, i couldn't break free.... couldn't regain control.
I was still semi-conscious of my actions, but not enough to control myself.
I became terrified.... unable to break the spiral into doom, into eternity. It was my punishment.... to remain conscious of my eternal loop throughout the remainder of time, but i kept lapsing in and out of reality. When in reality I fought to stay in control, but I wasn't strong enough to break free. I knew I had to wait out the waves, but i wasn't being patient, I couldn't lose control.... I couldn't....
I thought that death engulfed me.
My vision blurred.
All my senses ceased their operations.
I awoke from the nightmare.
Or so I thought....
It resumed it's reign of terror upon me.
I tried to keep track of time.... but it slipped away.
I was trapt in my own mind.
That is the the best word that would explain last night.
My world was destroyed.
I was stuck in a cycle, of infinity that i could never break. I had tried so many times that it knew my every move, i couldn't break free.... couldn't regain control.
I was still semi-conscious of my actions, but not enough to control myself.
I became terrified.... unable to break the spiral into doom, into eternity. It was my punishment.... to remain conscious of my eternal loop throughout the remainder of time, but i kept lapsing in and out of reality. When in reality I fought to stay in control, but I wasn't strong enough to break free. I knew I had to wait out the waves, but i wasn't being patient, I couldn't lose control.... I couldn't....
I thought that death engulfed me.
My vision blurred.
All my senses ceased their operations.
I awoke from the nightmare.
Or so I thought....
It resumed it's reign of terror upon me.
I tried to keep track of time.... but it slipped away.
I was trapt in my own mind.
The Spiral Of Infinity
The Spiral of Infinity wasn't showing me my past.... it was showing me my future. The only part I truly remembered though was the crash on the bike... which turned out to be part of a scarred video. Everything else I remembered as it happened... I went into the dream backwards and it mixed part of present with future.... then slowly came back to the present. It's hard to explain, but anyone who says you forget dreams shortly after you awaken is wrong in one sense. You don't forget the dream, you just forget details.
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