Betrayal

This dream hit me especially hard. I still can't shake the images from my head. My emotions were so confused and jumbled. I needed to get it out and onto here.

It began with the apocalypse. Chaos was everywhere. I demanded for my parents, brother, and girlfriend to get into the car. "I have to go back for them, I'll see you in the mountains, where we discussed." My tear-streaked parents nodded before shutting the door and screeching off in their car. I raced furiously across town in my truck. I hope I'm not too late. The thought kept repeating in my mind.

I arrived at her house. The whole building was in ruins. I dug through the rubble, looking for any signs of life. Another car pulled up behind mine, several figures jumped from the still running vehicle. We all began furiously tearing through the broken boards, stones, and other debris. I found her. I pulled her from the wreckage, she was crying furiously and clinging to me. "You came for me." were the only words she uttered.

Time lapsed. I was back at my parents house. The only room that was still secure was my brothers old room. We camped there for about a week. Everyone else that was originally with us was either dead or lost.

We finally made it to the mountains. My parents happily greeted us with hugs and smiles. After a warm homecoming, the mood turned grim. My brother and girlfriend had died in the journey to the mountains. They had died to protect my parents.

Would I have been able to save them if I hadn't come for her? Did I doom the ones I loved to honor an old promise?

I awoke.

The Voice

So I'm upstairs in my house in this dream, hanging out with my parents and Tasha. We're all joking around when my dad gets deadly serious and asks if I've been seeing ghosts lately or if it's felt like anything has laid down with me at night. I'm super confused at this point, but tell him no. Tasha jokingly starts to drag me towards the stairs like she's a ghost taking me away and I mock scream and my dad grabs my hand and pulls me back. We all have a good laugh about it and everyone, but me starts to go downstairs. Before my dad is down the stairs, I yell, "Besides Dad, I'm way bigger than I used to be! I could take a ghost now!" As I flex my muscles and do my impression of a karate stance. I start to walk towards the stairs at this point, but as I pass my room, a straw man in a suit about half the size of a normal person walks out of my room. I kiyup and punch it in the face, complimenting myself as I do it, but then I realize that a straw man shouldn't be able to walk on his own and fear shoots through me. A female voice comes from my room, "Come help me Miles....."

I fall to the ground and slowly start crawling towards the stairs, trying to scream, but unable to. Instead, only a muffled gurgle comes from my through. I hear myself panting and continue to try to scream for help, only to be awakened by my own sounds of struggle in real life. Apparently I was trying to scream in real life as well and was instead making strained breathing/pained noises.

I'm just happy I wasn't in my room at the time.

Minding the Sickness

This post is just a musing on thoughts that I have. Kind of just trying to get it all out of my head to "clear my mind" so to speak.

I've realized I've been having some very dark and twisted thoughts lately. Some of them depress me, some of them excite me, but I'm coming to realize it's a sickness on my mind. The ones that depress me serve no purpose except to ruin my mood. The ones that excite me are twisted and aren't something one should think about. Regardless of the effects, they are something that requires attention and repair.

The only problem is.... I have no idea where to even start the process or how to go about it. My instinct is isolation. I know it's a horrible instinct from all my experiences, but since it feels like a sickness to me, I wish to isolate myself, fix the problem, and then return to a social setting. This way the sickness isn't apparent and doesn't affect anyone else. However, I've seen how helpful having a support system is and know that one of the best ways to work out things of the mind is to talk it out with others.

If I take that approach, however, I run the risk of ostracizing someone that is close and dear to me. On the contrary, I could choose to confide in someone that is distant from me, but not receive the type of intimate advice and support that I'd like. Dilemmas, dilemmas....

Complications

          "It'll be alright, trust me," She whispers in my ear as she leads me to my bedroom. "He'll never find out about us."

          I can fear my anxiety rising as she closes and  locks the door behind me. She pushes me down on the bed and starts to undo her shirt. I lay there, motionless, not sure how I should feel at this moment. My friend's girlfriend finishes disrobing and begins to work at my belt. On one hand, I've always had a sort of twisted curiosity about friend's girlfriend, but that's all it had been, curiosity. Now that it was progressing to the next level, I didn't know how to act, or even how to feel.  Her hand traces lines across my now bare chest. I shudder a little, mostly because her touches tickle, but also because I realize what kind of monster I am turning into. I gaze upon her naked body and desire courses through my veins. No one will find out. I grab her hips and pull her down on top of me. She gives a little yelp of delight and our lips meet for the first time. She has such soft, full lips. Suddenly, she pulls away from me. I sit up, confused by her apparent second thoughts, but instead of getting dressed and leaving like I thought she would, she turns and gets on her hands and knees. Her back arches and her body beckons me. Again my mind is overwhelmed with the primal desire that only sex can produce. I lean over her, making sure she can feel my hot breath on her back as I insert myself into her. She exhales audibly as I begin to thrust. My mind starts to race furiously. Why is she so willing to do this with me? Is she that unhappy with her boyfriend? How can I do this to my friend's girlfriend?! I begin to thrust harder. Why am I enjoying this so much? She moans. Why does this make me feel so dominant?  I thrust again and she lays flat on her stomach. I loom over her, loving the submission she is exhibiting. Before I can reenter her, she rolls over and pushes me back. Again, I think she is having second thoughts and again she proves me wrong. She pulls the covers over herself and my lower half and I feel her lips wrap around my member. I lift the covers to allow myself to enjoy the show, but as soon as I do, the door to my bedroom springs open. My Ex enters the room and looks around with a sad expression on her face as the scenario unfolds in front of her.

       "Everyone is wondering where you two went, you should probably get downstairs before more people start to wonder." She says.

I don't even begin to make excuses, I just get dressed and rejoin the party that is ensuing downstairs. Throughout the night I give my Ex a series of apologetic looks, but she continues to just look sad and finally shakes her head at my last attempt to apologize.

Meanwhile, I'm also keeping an eye on my friend's girlfriend, curious as to how she is handling the entire situation. She looks completely unfazed, instead looking at me with accusing eyes that somehow say, "You better not tell."


End.

More Randomness

Two dreams packed into one post.

Dream 1:
Zombie apocalypse type setting. Main details that I remember, having a shotgun named Bertha, my brother having one named Betty, and my mom having a machete I called the Gordon Slasher and she wanted to call the Kansas City Sword.


Dream two:
Extremely random. First part I remember was fighting some guys in a canyon and trying to turn a (whatever you call those things on submarine doors that pressure lock the doors.... Wheel?) well anyways, theres this big huge muscle man that looks like an old school body builder, with the leotard and big bushy mustache. He stops me from turning the wheel the first time, but then I start singing a song and he joins in and I turn the wheel without him noticing, then a giant screw like object pops from the ground and I realize I have to run on in to get it to twist and pump water. Once I push it back into the ground I jump on a giant Wooden slab and water comes ripping down the canyon. I float away on the wood and into a cave.

Inside the cave, I take many random turns as the water follows the route of the cave deeper into the earth. I see a sign before entering a small hole in the wall and stop my raft to read it. it says "warning, (can't remember specifics) something about a key" so I continue on.

I am soon in this creepy looking old house and realize its a realistic tribute to old famous people, like a wax museum, but the figurines move and can talk to you ect.Well I see Frankenstein (who freaks me out) and some famous lady that reminds me of Marilyn Monroe. Then I see my aunt and my cousin and strike up conversation with them.

End.

Horses

I remember playing in a river with some people from my village and then hearing a commotion coming from upstream. Some horses were galloping casually towards us. I thought nothing of it besides the gentle grace that the creatures had. Once they passed the river turned to a solid mud, not the slimey stuff I normally think of, but a very rough, hard ground. I noticed one of the small girls from my village limping and upon further investigation revealed that her foot had been severed by one of the passing horses. It was a clean cut, no blood or anything. In fact it looked as though her leg had already formed a smooth flat stump where her foot had been, but when I touched the stump, the girl flinched and made noises of pain. I carried her back to the rest of the villagers and they asked what the problem was. When I went to point to her severed foot, it was back, painted toenails and all. I shouted at once that it must be a miracle. Then the government planes arrived, creating a impressive, if not intimidating display in the sky. Some of the planes were actually sacrificed to add to the visual awe of the display. I knew then that this government had no love for its people, but rather had control because the people were so terrified, they dared not oppose it.

End.

Karate Powers

I remember the dream starting off differently than this, but this is the earliest part I can remember in detail. I was walking down Durango, I think I was heading towards Durango high school, but anyways, I get this weird feeling so I turn around and four dogs that are mine have been following me for like a mile. I realize I'm going to have to Shepard them home. Three of the dogs stick together and bolt across the street, the fourth bolts in the opposite direction. I go after the pack, and try to get them in line before going after the one dog. I can't remember if I get him.

Part 2 of the dream starts up with Shantia and I climbing these seemingly endless stairs. They also have very little support for them so the entire time we're climbing they are wobbling. Oh and did I mention at the intersection of every floor there was a gate I had to jump over to continue climbing up? Scary. We finally get to the top and my foot gets stuck in the top step. They bring a helicopter with a winch to try to get if off, but I manage to just slide my foot out by using my other foot as leverage. We go inside this building at the top and its a warehouse where a giant fight breaks out.

Part 3
I'm wearing a karate gi that has no sleeves and some Heavy black boxing gloves, but my fingers still stuck out. Cashley was there trying to cast fireballs at me, so I was casting counter spells back at her. From what I counted I could make three main spells. The first of mine was a spell canceling spell, I would wave my hands and little clovers and purple streaks of air would shoot out and absorb other spells. The second allowed me to weave a purple wall trap, I knew if anyone crossed it, they'd be in trouble. and the third, allowed me to freeze and lift/move/throw people. It was kinda like telekinesis. Anyways, Cashley and some other girl are chasing me around this grocery store, and we're having a miniature battle. I keep canceling her spells as she throws them and trying to throw up walls to stop her. I finally get away and immediately start setting up traps everywhere. None of them work, but I run into others with super powers. One is sarcastically talking about how I should be a detective and that I'm "officially licensed now". It angers me so I freeze her, lift herabout five feet into the air sideways, and drop her into a cooler full of snow. Then my dad comes and asks me if I'm seen one of our companions so I start questioning everyone about it.

End.